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A year ago, I was telling my therapist about my idea to help me focus more on the present – less on the past or the future. My idea was to take a picture a day for a year. It would force me to pick up my camera again, as well as help me pick up my head and simply notice what is around me. Help me to again look for the light. A professional photographer once told me, “It’s all about the light.” In my enthusiasm, I confidentaly announced the picture a day idea would start on January 1st. In a matter of fact way, my dear therapist said, “Why not start tomorrow?” Oh. Start my being in the present project the next day…not a month later? She had a point! The next day was December 1, 2017.
As I chose the daily picture, I saved it to a wordpress blog which I kept private until completion. I started the private post because I was not confident I would be able to complete the task, but I soon learned the private post helped me to focus more on the task. It was just for me to take the pictures and also just me to decide on which one to post. A moment in conversation with myself about my world. Pictures were chosen for a variety of reasons. I learned early on I would need to make this simple project a priority because there were so many competing elements for my time. I took my camera to work with me and carried it to meetings across campus. People would ask what I was taking pictures of and my typical response was, I don’t know yet! Some pictures were deliberate, to sum up my day or show what was going on emotionally for me. Most were things I came upon or a quick picture of the people I was spending time with. The blog is full of friends, family and the amazing students of Stony Brook U, as well as places, sporting events, weddings, baptisms, funerals, birthdays, etc. and of course, the Eagle who came to Centerport.
November 30, 2018 is my last picture of the 365 day journey and it is posted above. I knew this project would give me some insight and maybe even hope, but today’s picture touched me in a way I am still struggling to find the words to describe. It unfolded like this…I saw the spectacular sunrise and grabbed the camera. From the front window I was getting shots of the sunrise with the neighbor’s porch. Then I thought to go upstairs to get a shoot above the neighbors house. So I climed the stairs and opened the window at the head of our bed. I hung out the window and started shooting. A few to the right, then center, then I wanted our locust tree to better frame the image. I moved the viewfinder and click. In the millisecond it took to capture the final shot, I saw it. A heart. A heart formed from the branches of the tree. One of Jane and my favorite pastimes was finding hearts in nature. Symbols of love in unexpected places. There it was. Right outside our bedroom window. It had been there the whole time. I was overcome with emotion. It had been there the whole time, I just had not noticed. My new daily task – simply notice. Breathe. Notice. Repeat.